Many thoughts

I feel peaceful...overwhelmed because as much as I wanted to fight this the battle was not one where you would loose or win. The expressions and thoughts of what I really wanted to say for a while have come out and I am comfortable and excepting this journey. It is odd but I am alright with the path my life is taking right now. I thank God for each open door that he is giving me. School is going alright, I have a lot of classes going on right now and major reading to maintain, but this is what I have to do to make it out of JCSU on time. Nothing holding me back. Latley I have been having these weird dreams sometimes they keep me up at night and other times I wake confused. They usually deal with someone from the past or present and I am dealing or overcoming an obstacle. Not sure what each dream means but I am grateful to be dreaming either way. I am alright and happy to say that life throughs obstacles in your way and you either deal with them or let them take control over you. Its a wonderful thing when you decide to keep on moving. Especially when you lose a bit of the person you are in love with, but he is defenitly more than another boyfriend...he is my best friend and I thank God everyday that he allowed Chris to come into my life whether it is as a boyfrined, or friend. He has qualities like no other, he listens to me, crack jokes with me, and he most importantly understand me and that is something I have struggled with. I am soooo comfortable around him and I have waited so long to have that level of freedom around someone that at first it came as a shock, but now he is a friend first and foremost (I am laughing now writing this) and nothing at all can compare to my best friend I will always love him with all of my heart, and be there to support him in any way that I can, as he does me.

Peace and Love,

Spirit