Nothing at all!

The feeling of defeat has overcome my spirit...I must say that this time I am lost and feeling odd emotions. I want to fight, but will I be putting myself out on the line. I could be upset but I am not, I could be excited but I am not...I am melencoly, you know in between the "pregnant thoughts" like a frined of mine says. I wonder where or what did I do wrong....ME B/C I WOULD TAKE THE BLAME IF THIINGS COULD GO BACK. There is a missing factor in me, and I will not let these emotions overcome me, but at the same time it hurts. But this is what was wanted...so there you go! ENJOY...this is a slice of reality!